A little help from my friends..

Sorry for the late post tonight, y'all! I originally hadn't planned to blog tonight because I have had a long, busy day. BUT as I am laying here in this bed, I have so much on my mind and I know all you sweeties will help a sista out!!

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I can't disclose too much more info right now, but it is coming, I promise!

Send me some lovin' would ya? Good vibes and energy. 

Whomever you pray to (Jesus, Buddha, coffee, shoes etc.) , pray to them to get me some courage and strength. No, its nothing life threatening, so not to worry!!

I hope Tuesday treated you all well!! I can't wait to fill you in on my little secret, no matter the outcome!

 

 

miscellany monday

It's Monday. I wish that I knew why Monday always comes so fast. Seriously. 

I hope you all had a great weekend and enjoyed some quality time with your mama mia's. I spent the day with my sister who is like my mom since we couldn't spend it with ours. It was pretty low key. Around these parts, we don't make a huge deal out of holidays and such. We just spend good time with family and enjoy each other. I like it that way, I have to say. 

Anywhoooo, I am linking up with carissa for a little miscellany monday! It's probably one of my fav new link ups because sometimes a girl has no direction for her post and she needs an excuse to be random.

1. I laid in bed yesterday and blogged, pinned and stalked people on facebook. It was a rainy day in Georgia (much needed though so I'm not complaining) so it was only fitting to be lazy. I mean, that IS what Sunday's are for right? Done. 

2. I have some exciting things happening this week, one of which I can't inform you of just yet and believe me its killing me. I guess you'll have to come back and see what all the fuss and hype was about later this week. Also, I'm going to the first Braves game of the season. THANK YOU LORD! The Braves are my peeps. We love them around these parts. 

3. I may or may not be making a poster that reads "Just graduated college. Someone please hire us!" for said Braves game. You should definitely watch now because what IF we make it on TV? It could happen. 

4. I wish that my eyebrows would stop growing. I feel like I pluck them literally every day. It's getting annoying. I wouldn't mind if they just quit..or if we didn't have eyebrows at all. Don't judge me until you have to pluck your eyebrow errrr day. 

5. I miss Beezy. For those of you who don't follow me on twitter or instagram, I dog sat this sweet dog for one of my friends while he was at the Masters. Then I kept her again when he was out of town after that. I will be honest, I'm usually not a dog person, but this dog is the best. She is soooo sweet and cute. I just love her!

 I call her Beezer because every dog needs a nickname.

And its hard to see, but that is a pink collar with white polka dots and a turq monogram thanks to her godmother...me. I couldn't send her home with the same boring orange one she had before, duh.

Stay tuned for more info on my somewhat, possibly exciting news. Send some prayers my way though y'all! Hope everyone has a greattttt Monday!!

Mom

Today is Mother's day and one of the hardest days of the year for me and my sister. I usually try to keep my blog fun and light-hearted because, lets be honest, no one wants to read a blog that is a debbie downer all the time.

With that being said, I am taking time to be somewhat of a debbie downer today, friends. The purpose, though, behind my post isn't to be such. It is just the opposite. It is to show you all that taking people for granted is for the birds and that it shouldn't be done and also to remember my sweet mom who is the strongest person I have ever known.

I haven't shared a whole lot with you about this, but we are all friends and I value each and every one of you. Also, please DO NOT feel sorry for me. That is the last thing I want to come out of this post. This is for my mom.

Dear Mom,

It is so hard to believe that it has been over 4 years since you passed away. First of all, breast cancer sucks a big one, yeah? I think we can both agree on that. Speaking of that, I got a tattoo. Don't be mad. It was all for you. A lovely pink ribbon on my foot that I display proudly and tell of you every time someone asks about it. I almost feel like you left us just yesterday because seriously, I can remember everything that happened that day and then remember nothing all at the same time.

I gave up on the nursing dream because bloods makes me queezy...red flag Ashley! I can just hear it now. I did find something that I love to do and just last weekend I graduated college. Can you even believe that? I know that I can't. Everything about that day was great except you were missing. But there was this one time during the ceremony (I had zoned out bc it was like 768 degrees and we were on about name 114 of 1600) I remember the wind blowing. It was one of the only times it happened during the entire 2 hours..btw thanks for the help. You could have thrown out a little wind that day. I remember thinking as soon as that breeze came that it was all you. You were there and I believe that.

Mama, I want so badly for you to be there for all the milestones that I have to come in the future. My first house, my first big girl job, my wedding day, my first baby being born. I feel almost cheated in a way that you weren't granted that chance and neither was I, but then I feel selfish for thinking such things. I know you would tell me to just move on and live the best I possibly could and I so hope that you would be proud of me so far.

Everything that has happened and everything I have done has been for you. I wouldn't and couldn't have done it without your support even now. I know that you still support me in everything I am doing and will do. Just the thought of that is comfort enough.

As much as I wish that you were still here to celebrate birthdays, holidays and milestones, I know that you are resting peacefully and without pain now. It doesn't make it any easier and when people tell you time heals all things, they are wrong. It never gets better. It gets bearable.

I have always known that a little girl needs her mama more than anyone else in her life. Someone she can look up to, learn from and cry to when times are hard. I got to do all of those things for 18 years and I am so thankful. I know that you are watching me and praying for me to make the best decisions I can while still backing me up on the not so great ones, and you know there have been a few of those. Like all the times I thought it would be a great idea to go out on a Sunday night before a test on Monday. Or the time I thought it would be alright to back up my long driveway at night and backing right into a tree. Yeah, you get the idea. 

I hope that I make you proud and that one day I grow up to be just as strong, courageous, hard-working, loving and compassionate as you were. I have some big shoes to fill.

And just one more thing... do you think you could send a man my way sometime soon? I mean I kinda have that same one I have had forever now and he's not making any moves, so if we aren't right together could you just send me a new one and lets start over from scratch? I would like for him to already be trained...it takes too much time to train one properly. I don't have time to do all the dirty work. You know the kinds I like. :)

I love you always. Happy Mother's day, mama.

And to all the mothers celebrating today. Don't take your moms for granted, y'all. Tell them everyday that you love them and call them back after a silly fight and tell them you are sorry and that none of that nonsense really even matters.

Take it from me. A girl who would give anything and everything to go back in time and change a million things.

Hope you all have a blessed day and enjoy your families!

Peace out, girl scouts!

MidWeek Confessions

Happy Wednesday (almost Thursday) y'all!! I had my whole OHP link up started then I just scrapped it for now because I haven't really been on there enough to show you anything good. Hopefully by next week I will have some good stuff prepared for you to lust over!

 In the meantime, I have stumbled across this lovely little link-up and I think I just may have to participate in it!!

I am linking up with E, myself and I for a little midweek confessions!

ENJOY!

1. I have not counted carbs since before graduation and I am deathly afraid to get on that scale and see what the damage is. Now, let me say that I haven't been eating terribly, but I haven't been as strict on myself as I was. Gotta get back on it. 

2. I tweet toooooo much, me thinks. I mean what is the appropriate number of tweets one can tweet in a day? I mean those celebs and junk that I follow tweet constantly. I'm no celeb, well maybe in my own mind, but IDK what constitutes as TOO much. Hmm...

3. I have checked the mailbox so much this week hoping that a little bit of leftover graduation money will still trickle in. So far, its a no go. Selfish much? Nope, I just want a new outfit for myself thanks to anyone who sends me money. Email me for an address :)

4. I may have told a small lie to one of my friends in an effort to surprise her with a little party in the next few weeks. Details to come. 

5. I almost got in bed at 7pm tonight with my book but then I felt like a massive loser whose 23 and wants to go to bed at 7pm. Listen, don't judge me haters. Don't even do it. 

What are your midweek confessions? There is no judgement here...not directly anyways :) 

Go link up and join in on this cute link up and read her blog. It's totally cute!!

Graduation

Hiiiii-o!! Yesterday, I officially became a college graduate! The typical kind- no job, no prospects, and no money. Even with all that, I still feel so happy and proud of myself for making it this far and finally finishing. It was one of the hardest and most rewarding things I have done so far. 

I wouldn't have made it without the support of my wonderful family and friends. I don't feel like I graduated from college, I feel like WE graduated. They have been there to listen to me cry, vent, complain and so much more for the past few years and I couldn't be more appreciative for them. Thanks guys!

The ceremony...long and hot. I think I sweated out all the liquids I had drank for the past week. It was hot, but it could have been a lot worse. Thanks Georgia summer for making the sun hotter than ever and allowing no breeze to come thru front campus between the hours of 8:30 and 11. 

I have to admit that I was in diva mode all week because I THOUGHT my family had planned a baseball party for my nephew on the same day as my graduation. I was kinda ok with it at first, but then once it got closer I realized I wanted to spend the day with my family, but that they would be rushing home to prepare for the party. 

Ian aka (not so) mystery boy drove 8 hours on Friday to be here and he pretty much took me away from them right after. I thought he felt bad for me since I had cried to him the day before about how no one seemed to care about being with me on graduation. So he took me to lunch and a movie then kept suggesting things to do because "he didn't wanna go home because it was boring." If you know him, he loves being home. He is such a home body. Finally I was released from his care and I came home. 

Long story short, around 5pm I see people starting to arrive at my sisters which is right next door to my house. I assumed it was people from my nephew's baseball team....wouldn't you know it....

They were all my friends. My silly and crazy big sister had been planning this whole graduation party behind my back and ALL my friends were in on it for at least a week prior to graduation. 

My immediate feeling was digust..with myself for being such a rude little brat all day. I had to then apologize to my family for being so snappy. She got a kick out of my anger I think because deep down she knew I was going to regret it in a matter of time!! Ridic.

It was a great time with all my closest family and friends and as I sit here and type this blog and think about how things are about to change for everyone, it makes me emotional. Two of my best friends are moving 2+ hours away and it makes me happy for them to be moving on with their lives but makes me sad because I am going to miss them like crazy!  

Congrats girls. I know you are going to be awesome and are going to do all the best things in the world and I can't wait to be cheering you on every step of the way!

And now begins the picture overload! :)

 Two of my best friends. They have been my sidekicks for over a year now and 

I can't imagine them not being my besties!

 I was forced to take this picture with the cake. You know, like all the cool people do!

 He's gonna kill me because he was sweaty, but isn't he just so cute?! I miss him like crazy.

 Me and the Hannah! Known each other for a long time now and I am glad we are getting close :)

A little private gift opening. They gave me alcoholic items that couldn't been seen my all my guests. 

My two best girl friends. I don't know what I would do without them. Seriously.

 Me and Shelby aka my sistawife

Me and Kevin have been friends since 7th grade. I still consider him one of my besties. 

 

WE DID IT!!!!!

How cute is that one in his bowtie!?  ow owww.

Thanks for all your kind words and support this semester bloggers! Some of you have been there a lot for me and I can't say thank you enough! I am officially back and I know you are so excited!

Also, for those 2 people who unfollowed me, I hope you feel bad. I was trying to graduate college and couldn't blog that much. Sorry I was no good but you should be ashamed :)

Just kidding....maybe.

SurREAL life

So, if any of you have even noticed, I have been MIA more than I care to admit over the past month or so. I have been so busy with school and life that blogging hasn't been number one. I really do miss reading blogs and getting sweet comments on mine!

Not to worry, I will be back sooner than you think. I officially finish my college career tomorrow and then I graduate this Saturday which is oddly enough, cinco de mayo. Big partying in my near future.

I can't even believe this is happening. It is all just bittersweet. I am excited to have a break and have no papers to write and no studying to do, but if it meant that things would stay the way they are right now, I would continue with all that nonsense.

Two of my best friends in the world are moving. Granted, not far away but still. I will explain more later when I am time. I am so happy for both of them starting new chapters in their lives, but I am selfish and I can admit that I hate to see things change.

Anyways, two finals away from being donezo! I am nervous, scared, anxious, excited, worried, overwhelmed, appreciative and a whole host of other emotions that you can think of.

 I will be back in full swing next week and I plan on overloading you all with recent pictures and stories!

I hope everyone has a great week. I can't wait to read about your lives again. WE have so much catching up to do! Say a prayer that I don't fall when I walk across that stage on Saturday and that I don't have a complete meltdown because I am so overwhelmed...

..oh and that my hangover isn't too too bad on Sunday! :)